I went walking 2 days in a row!! I’m so proud of myself that I wanted that to stand out! I went yesterday with my boyfriend and today by myself. Both were on trails, we prefer trail hiking/walking/running. I think it’s more fun and interesting. The trail we walked on yesterday had so many steep hills and inclines, we walked for 45 minutes and burned over 500 calories according to this app he has.
We also ran into several heaping, and I mean heaping, piles of horse poo. By far the most amazing part.
I felt great afterwards, and we wanted to get back before dark but could have kept going. It felt really great though! I actually think I forgot what sweat felt like!
And today I was tired, as I usually am on Thursday, but I got home, went to the park and walked a trail alone. I like walking with my boyfriend so much better because he’s goofy and great, and he makes me walk at a faster pace. He is 5’11 and I’m 5’3 so it’s work but I love it. Walking alone isn’t as fun, but I walked a trail. I’m lucky enough to live close to a state park. The park is okay, but I did see a couple of deer. I was a little scared of them at first, I’ve never seen deer but running in front of my car or being hit by one. So just to kind of see one out in nature was a little bit strange. They just stared at me and look terrified. If they had seen my boyfriend they would have ran the other direction, deer hate him. J He’s hit about 17 with his vehicle, only 2 without it.
But I continued on and walked 2 miles and burned around 240 calories. Eating wise I’ve been doing okay. For date night we ate chicken and rice his dad made. I’ve been splurging on chips with my protein shake at lunch. Today for lunch I just had the chips, ate some of the shake.
I’ve started a high protein diet, and I really like the shakes, but too much protein is making me feel a bit sick and bloated. I may not be drinking enough water, so it looks like a little research on that is necessary. I am not cutting my calories in a severe enough way yet to ensure any weight loss, but it will happen. I’ve lost weight before a few times and my expectations are realistic. This time I want the weight loss to be for good. I want to make a pact to myself to walk on any day I’m by myself and it’s nice out as long as I don’t have other plans. My boyfriend and I are in this together and we’ve both walked alone this week and with each other. Having that extra encouragement is amazing. The night isn’t over. I had some sausage and potato thing for dinner. So yeah, I haven’t eaten great today.
I’m hoping the shakes I love aren’t making me ill. Research will be done, and thank goodness tomorrow is Friday. I don’t plan on walking, but I do plan on eating well. We are planning on walking this weekend weather permitting. And eating pizza. Then next week New York! My self esteem is sky high though even if I haven’t been perfect! I have walked two days in a row and been bettering myself. How great am I? There’s that self esteem. I may eat some ice cream before bed. Baby steps, but at least today they were on a trail, in the right direction.
Well, I haven’t written a blog for a week so you’re probably guessing how I’ve been doing. Not walking really or doing the protein shakes that I love. It can be easy to feel like a letdown, but I haven’t given up hope. I will say that my boyfriend and I walked a hard trail for an hour last Wednesday and it felt amazing! Other than that…
Yesterday was mother’s day so I went out to eat and then ate some more. It’s a holiday, which is kind of a given that I will screw up. I had so much fun with my family and my boyfriend’s family that I decided the extra food was worth it. Forgiven.
I have my new lot of shakes coming and I’m good to go. Last week my stomach didn’t feel great and it was my boyfriend’s brother’s birthday, and I had a t-bone. It was delicious and I would feel guilty but I liked it too much. His dad offered so I who am I to turn down a t-bone? This thing was bigger than my face. It was delicious and I would feel guilty but I liked it too much. Forgiven. J
It’s hard to forgive yourself while still being hard on yourself, but it is possible. I decided it was Monday and to start fresh. I had a protein bar for breakfast and a salad for lunch, soup for dinner. Water and milk to drink, not too bad. I was going to walk, but it is cold outside, so I stayed in and got a few things done. My treadmill doesn’t work still so I can’t solve that problem. I did eat well today though, and will make my shake and have yogurt tomorrow while snacking on my almonds during the day.
The truth is, I’m very hard on myself about most things. I want to lose weight, and I will. I’m trying to concentrate it’s just hard. Right now an advantage is that I don’t want to spend money either. So I’m eating well AND saving money which is a huge bonus. I leave for New York in about two weeks. With all the walking I’m planning on doing there and having a couple nice meals, I should be good to go.
The truth is, if you are too hard on yourself you’ll just give up all together. So I’ve been eating well, then eating poorly, and starting again. Eventually I’ll get to a spot where I don’t have to forgive myself for doing anything wrong because it will all come naturally. Until then, forgiveness will be a big word in my vocab with this diet. Let’s face it, I listennto Hootie and the Blowfish and watch Full House. I need to be forgiven for more than this diet.
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